This is what happens when I study alone in the Eng library

Suddenly I feel so alone.
Nobody's doing Manufacturing Studies with me.
So I have to study it alone.

And it's a really weird feeling...
Think I've officially spent too much time studying with Justin, Ryan and Daniel, that it's just a horribly weird feeling now that they're not around me while I study, or to teach me when I am confronted with a dumb question.
Need to read the textbook and find out the answers for myself.

And I have a feeling that what I am going through in this subject this semester, is a tiny part of what the people on the other side of the study-spectrum go through -
They go to lectures alone and say hi and sit beside a few acquaintances who sometimes try to be friendly, but they put a wall around themselves anyway.

They do their assignments and tutorials alone throughout the semester.

And when it's study time during the Swot Vac, they take the books, notes and tute sheets out and attempt to do all of them, all by themselves.

Finally on the day of the examination, they go to the exam venue alone, take their one seat in a midst of three thousand others (people and seats), do the paper, go home, relax(?) and wait for the results to be posted.

If the results are good, there is nobody who did the same paper to do well with and share the joy with. If they turn out to be bad, there's nobody who knows the paper well enough to say 'I sat for the paper and it was really hard'.

As I think about it, I realize that I am surrounded by my friends all the time.
I don't even study alone (till today).
If I am too dependent on others, I am defintely enjoying it, and I thank God for these people in my life.

I thank God for
Diane -
For being me when I lose myself.
For loving me the way I want to be loved.
For just being the way she is.

For Amelia
Who always seems pop out with most fitting things at the most fitting times.
And who is just so easy to be with.

For Ryan, Justin and Daniel
For caring even though they don't have any reason to.
For making me study and helping me pass the exams since last semester.
For answering every stupid question of mine - be it to do with work, life, boys, girlfriends, or the Defence Force of Singapore,
And for being the big brother figures to the (pesky) tomboy I'm supposed to be.

Christine,
For the presence and the consideration,

And for my Someone Special
For whom I cannot do without.

+ Flisha spoke @ 4:09 pm

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