I am a Barbarian

My Friday 4.15 - 5.15pm tutorial told me that I'm a barbarian after making me do some 'strategic leadership styles instrument' by Gaylord Reagan.
Anyway 'barbarian' evolved into 'cannibal', somehow.
I'm so prepared to be called that for a while :(

Apparently, being in high control appeals to barbarians (like me).

Which brings me back to what I logged on to write my blog.

Before leaving last week, I was a wreck.
I was terrified of being away from home after drowning in 3 months of love and attention.
I was completely out of control of my feelings.
Simply freaking out.
I even thought the plane was going to crash.

The Qantas aircraft looked good cos it was new.
Forgot about my notion about the plane crashing.

I chided myself for being an idiot, and came to the conclusion that just because I don't want to leave Singapore, doesn't mean I have to be unhappy about coming back to Melbourne.

Then I thought about my crazy and redundant 'I hate Melb and I don't want to go back' tirade.
And I fumed at myself for being in a position of absolutely no control of my thoughts and feelings.

Yesterday, I realized something.
There are decisions and events which inevitably occur that I cannot control because they're all external.

BUT I can control me and myself.
I make the decisions how I want to live my life be it happy or sad, optimistic about the future, or regretful of the past.

I control who I am.

So I have decided to be precisely who I want to be.

+ Flisha spoke @ 1:39 am

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Comments:

Your last few lines are words of wisdom... yet hard to live it, cos sometimes our emotions take over and we are not even aware of it. Something i've been learning as of late. So gotta be reflective of what is happening in our lives and on our actions and reactions.

But it gets easier as we grow in the Light of Christ, with Him as our model, we can't go that far wrong.

# posted by  Terence : 12:10 am

 

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