Don't mind me while I cry

I'm not sure why I'm putting this up online, but
I'm upset.
I'd like things to go my way.

I'm sick of looking out for myself.
I'd like someone to look out for me, dry my tears, tell me that everything is going to be fine, and guard me while I sleep.
I have such bad dreams.

I'm tired of looking out for everybody else.
Don't get me wrong, I like doing it.
It's just that I'd like to know that people can look out for themselves and I should stop being such a kaypo.

I'd like to be in control of my life.
But lately nothing has been going the way I'd like it to.

I'd like to know what I'm really thinking, and what other people are thinking, so that I know what to do.
But lately I don't know anything.

I feel terribly lost.
Disorientated.

I'd like to tell you the events that had taken place today.
I'd like to tell you all my feelings.
I'd like to tell you all my thoughts, because you help me straighten them out, and then help me realise new things about them.
I know that you don't always understand, but you always make yourself do, even if it is in some warped wrong way.
I also know that however screwed my events, feelings and thoughts are, you will never judge me, leave me, or stop loving me.
You look out for me.
You look out for all of us.
You help me understand the people around me.
You let me know that you'll take care of everything, and tomorrow is a brand new wonderful day when I wake up after a trip to slumberland where the angels and fluffy clouds are.

I love you.
I miss you.
And I want you back.

+ Flisha spoke @ 11:53 pm

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