Jia

This is to my 1/1 classmates whom Mrs Low drilled the 1998 national day theme song into our heads...
And to every Singaporean student who was made to sing 'Home' after the National Anthem on 8th August 1998.

'Home' has a wonderful tune and beautifully meaningful lyrics -

Whenever I am feeling low
I look around me and I know
There's a place that will stay within me
Wherever I may choose to go
I will always recall the city
Know every street and shore
Sail down the river which brings us life
Winding through my Singapore

Chorus:
This is home truly, where I know I must be
Where my dreams wait for me, where that river always flows
This is home surely, as my senses tell me
This is where I won't be alone, for this is where I know it's home

When there are troubles to go through
We'll find a way to start anew
There is comfort in the knowledge
That home's about its people too
So we'll build our dreams together
Just like we've done before
Just like the river which brings us life
There'll always be Singapore

(Chorus X 2)

For this is where I know it's home
For this is where I know I'm home

Music & Lyrics: Dick Lee

The Chinese lyrics are even better.
I leave you to read and think.
http://www.singsingapore.org.sg/song_jia.htm

+ Flisha spoke @ 2:21 pm

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Rocking up

Listen -
A new meaning to the Australian slang, Rocking Up.

Okok.
I know it's lame :D

+ Flisha spoke @ 5:33 am

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Fantasies do come true

Fel sits back and thinks.
Today was beautifully spent.
She smiles.

Nuff said.

+ Flisha spoke @ 8:15 pm

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Because.

Church guidelines... are man made...
And so is 'fasting during Lent'.
And I'm just a cranky hungry uncomfortable brain dead girl when I don't eat.
So I'm eating my 3 (or more) meals everyday whenever I'm hungry.

Either that or it's just way too easy to 'forget' to eat.
Now where's the sacrifice in that if I'm not hungry the whole day?
I'll be fasting... but not exactly giving up anything.

+ Flisha spoke @ 7:58 pm

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So much for not blogging

My thoughts on Ash Wednesday -

I really really don't agree with many parts of how the Church is run.
Then again they can't please everybody right?
But still -
Oh well I better not bitch lest I get scolded again by the biased Catholics.

Me is not fasting from food this season of Lent because I don't agree with the logic of it that I know of.

This Lent, I'm making my sacrifices-
1. Will make a conscious effort to refrain from bitching about guys behind their backs (I don't do that to girls)
2. Be nice to the many guys I'm horrible to (I'm nice to girls).
3. Stop swearing.

I'll need all the help I can get.

Pray...

+ Flisha spoke @ 6:58 pm

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so this is goodbye?

I reckon I won't be posting anything up here for some time.
Have not had the muse to write anything lately...
And I don't see that changing anytime in the near future.
Oh well...

Still, drop in yeah!

Love ya

+ Flisha spoke @ 7:49 pm

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I've lost myself

I am thinking...
I am thinking...
I am thinking...
Of practically nothing.

Feel like I've just been wasting my time.
Not done anything productive since exams ended a while ago...
Not reached out to touch anybody's lives for maybe a month or more...
(And my life keeps getting touched everyday)

I am feeling...
I am feeling...
I am feeling...
That I dunno what's going on around me anymore.

It's hard...
To not know what comes tomorrow.

+ Flisha spoke @ 5:13 am

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I'm talking to you

After 5 painful days of studying (and watching tv)...
4 days of abstaining from the internet...
2 sleepless nights from sheer excitement and anticipation of 2 papers the following day...
1 full day of studying hard and 1 night of well deserved rest....

SHE'S BACK!!

Yup yup yup I'm back I'm back I'm back.
Just got home from my last paper!

Felicia declines to comment on any of the papers...
Except for the fact that I'm hoping that I pass them.
But that's duh. If I hope I fail I just won't go for it - that way sure fail :D

Thanks for all the Vday wishes.
I spent Vday with my hot dates...
Was planning to spend it with three of them but on hindsight, I spent it with 4.
Bet you've all be wondering who they are.
Now that the big day was long over, I'll tell ya -
1. Mech - for mechanics
2. Matt - for materials
3. Math - for maths!
4. Telly - that's the television (in case you haven't already had it figured)

Taadaaaahhhh!

Oh well, Vday's no fun if you don't have family and friends who are special enough to spend it with.
So I spent it with the person I love most after family and friends - that's none other than Myself.

Okok better stop it with my ego trips.

Happy vday!

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:20 am

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Valentines' Day thought

To all you couples out there, and to everybody else who's remotedly interested,
I saw 'The Mexican' which stars Julia Roberts and Brad Pitt today on Channel 9.

Question:
If two people love each other so much but can't seem to get to each other, when do you get to the point when enough is enough?

Answer:
Never.

It's beautiful, isn't it?

+ Flisha spoke @ 9:58 pm

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Friday the thirteenth

Thanks for the thoughts my friends...
Really appreciate it...
But I guess I didn't really find my answer.
Doesn't matter :D

Went swimming today.
And made a new friend.
He's now the second cutest guy I know...
With the hottest body I've ever seen.
Whoohoo!!

+ Flisha spoke @ 8:59 pm

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and here's a thought that has been bugging me for 4 days.

Everything you think and do should have a reason and direction.
Do you concur?

ps It would be nice if you shared your insights with me...

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:24 pm

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apologies if you keep reading the same entry...

(at least it's not about Nelson blowing cold noodles)
*Fel winks straight at Mandy*
Sorry Nelson.

And now, back to the point.
Me's so stoned up these few days I can't think of anything you might wanna read about to put on here...
It's a pre exam syndrome I reckon.
So that explains it if I don't update for the next week.
(But that doesn't mean you don't drop in! :P)
Me's appreciating your readership (stole the word from Lionel) lots.

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:21 pm

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Death

My computer has shown the first signs of it's eminent death -
Her keys are falling off the keyboard...
How sad

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:10 pm

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IQD

International Quirkyalone Day.

International Quirkyalone Day parties!!
For singles!
WAHAHAHHAHAHAA
On Valentines' Day.
Check it out!
http://straitstimes.asia1.com.sg/mval/story/0,4980,233827,00.html?

Oh well I've got my dates figured for Vday.
No IQD for me.

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:38 pm

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for now,

'Hopes' and 'Dreams' are beautifully fabricated lies.
Call me a pessimist and a cynic...

But I choose to 'Work Towards'.

(until further notice)

Ambition, here I come.

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:59 pm

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My Lost Angels

I feel like shit.

There are so many people in the world...
And I've only come into contact with so many.
This 'many' makes a negligible proportion of the world population.
And of this negligible proportion of people, even fewer of them have touched my life in the most special ways ever.

After they touch my life they disappear from the face of the earth.
As though they were angels sent by God to straighten a part of my life...
And when their job is done, they leave and move on to make magic in other people's lives.

I try to live without regrets.
And I thought I've succeeded these years.

2 minutes ago I broke my own rule of not dwelling on the past.
I made my first regret -

I wish I had kept in touch with these God-sent angels.

For now, before I regret any further, I'll treasure the relationships I already have, and I promise to keep them.
So that you, my angels touching my life now, will never disappear.

+ Flisha spoke @ 8:33 pm

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My Videos!

I FINALLY got my hands on the video of To Kill a Mockingbird!!
How exciting.
Can't wait to watch it (I haven't seen it although I've had it for days)
And I can just see all of you being jealous.
:P

Also borrowed 'Walkabout'.
Read the novel by James Vance Marshall when Bernice and I were studying in Lorna Whiston with Mr Strachan...
Speaking of whom, I just noticed I haven't spoken to him in AGES.
Maybe I'll write to him...
He's got a cool address!
The only number his entire address is the zip code.
None for his house or anything....

Nothing to tell you about anything else.........

Getting pretty stoned up...
Going to spend Friday evening watching tv.

Simpsons is on now!
Tata.

+ Flisha spoke @ 4:16 pm

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Difficulties

It is so easy to see anything in a postive light
It's just as simple to be convinced that anything is bad.

Life as a Student is Not Easy.
Some people are just born to breeze through it.
Lots of people aren't.
But whether they breeze through it or not, they still face it.

To various extents, we students are pressured.
By various bodies of people ranging from the government and our parents, to the society, then to the education system, and down to our principals, who then psych the teachers... who in turn pressure the students... so that they pressure each other.
To do well academically.

That, for a lot of people, is a big enough headache.
Then there is that expectation that we've got to excel in our co curricular activities...
And our own hobbies - dance, music...
And no man is an island - so we need to maintain relationships with our families and friends.
Then some of us juggle in issues - boyfriends, girlfriends...

Somehow after all that, we still find the time to entertain ourselves - Theatre, shopping, eating out, recreational activities...
New issue - Money (for obvious reasons).

The general crowd of international students without family where they're studying go through additional crap.
It's mainly because we don't have our parents to do stuff for us.
- There's that aura of independence that floats around - it's constantly in our heads that we don't have our parents to fall back so easily on. Stress.
- We've gotta pay our own bills and keep track of the money coming in and going out. Responsibilities for our stuff.
- Take good care of ourselves - remembering to eat healthily (maybe that's just for me). Responsiblity for oneself.
- We take care of our friends. Just like they look after us and offer us their ever constant support. Responsibility for others.
- You put up with petty and difficult landlords, look for acceptable accomodation which is in line with you budget, compete (as full time students) with working people with stable inflow of money for apartments...
Living and working with disliked people.

As if that's not enough, there are men who turn out to be sexually deprived grandfathers who betray your trust in them.

My friend,
All it takes is for this sexually deprived grandfather to affect your sanity.
And you retreat into a tiny dimension in your own universe and seal it off anything that tries to come into it.
Your friends see you distance.
They try to bring you out back into the 'real material world'.

I don't know why things happen to some people and not to others.
And it's easy for me to say what I say because I reckon I've had it easier than a lot of my peers.

But we all go through these while being students, but really as our parents' children, growing up into adolescents and young adults.
As students, we taste the world outside the comforts of our homes.
Slowly, but surely, we step more and more...

Into the world...

In it's full glory...

Of joys, laughter, friendship, love, successes....

And diseases.

Don't EVER forget what you're here for - to experience The World.

+ Flisha spoke @ 8:06 pm

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