Joanne

Am back in Melb.

You know how people and things change gradually every millisecond of our lives?
It's so gradual we don't usually notice it.

I was in Singapore for a week.
Stepped foot on Australian grounds at 4.30am.
The Melb I came back to was the Melb I knew 10 days ago when I left.

Less than 12 hours later, Joanne left Melbourne.
For good.

That's a classic example of sudden change.
The 5 seconds Joanne turned her back to us to walk into the departure lounge was the 5 thousand milliseconds I saw a part of Melb crash down before my eyes.
And there was nothing I could do about it.

Of course I've been changing over the past 8 hours too.
I've come to realize something -

Hey Jo, however ironic this sounds, I've found consolation in the fact that 'Melb crash(ed) down before my eyes' when you walked away from me.
It was the part of life with you in Melb that crumbled.

You, as a part of my soul lives on.
Strong.

I pray it will be the same with you.
For the both of us.
Always.

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:28 pm

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Re-experiencing the Alma Mater

Just got back from watching the IJ choir perform.
That has gotta be the highlight of my week.
It was a great performance put up by the girls.

The other thing I really enjoyed were the people around me.

The teachers who're always supportive of the school were once again there -
Ms Jo Teo, Mrs Tan Aye Leng, Ms Teo Peng Suan, Mr Teh, Ms Pat Tan...
Choir mistresses Mrs Madg Low and Mrs Seah Tay...

The IJ girls -
Are just as we've always been.

Our faces may change, but the flame of the school spirit burns ever so steadily.

+ Flisha spoke @ 11:48 pm

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What it should have been.

I was just thinking of the entry I made earlier.
I have confined the true beauty of the friends I so love with words.

I make my correction -
I don't take it all back.

But may I stress my point -
That you've gotta experience them it to know it.

+ Flisha spoke @ 5:46 pm

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I love...

Ping Zhi:
She's the best -
I daresay she's my oldest and bestest friend...
And although we might not have things to talk about constantly, it's just great to be in her warm, flattering presence.

Bernice:
Never changes :D
She's just as bubbly as always.

Shuxian:
Has this wonderful ability to make the people around her feel extremely important.
I reckon it's just her and her simplicity, sinceriety...

Pei Jun:
Is in hospital.
She reminds me a lot of Su.
Don't think she's feeling absolutely perfect, but she puts on her bestest smile and sets her energy level to the max she can.
It's not the super energy that we see all the time, but the Essence of PeiJun is still there.
Oh yes, and despite being super pale, she's as hot as ever.
[Guys (and gals), calm down!!]

Alison:
She's got this amazingly extensive capacity to think for and help other people.
Kinda like an angel dropped from heaven for the benefit of people she comes into contact with her (eg. Myself)

Lester:
Is just Lester.
He's the big brother figure I'm fortunate enough to have.
And it's amazing how he always makes time to meet up with me.

Greg:
Is another of the amazing people who can make anybody feel amazingly important.
And he makes time for me too!
Lester, Greg, Alison, Andrew and I made a pact to meet up every time I come back.
So far that's been going very very well.

Sean:
Never met a person quite so similar to me till Sean.
He doesn't like clubbing cos he doesn't like dancing.
I don't like clubbing cos I can't even dance to begin with.
We both prefer pubbing by far (if the music's agreeable, that is)...
I don't think the similarities end there... but let's keep it at that for today.

Alex(andre):
Is also a wonderful wonderful person.
Am so glad to know him - I really am.
He's so far the only person I know who talks to me now in the exact same manner he used to talk to me, and about the exact same things....
He makes me feel like I've never been away...
It's a really good feeling.

Of course these are not the only ones I love.
These are the people I've met up with within the past 3 days.
I wonder who I'd be without them...
Just like I wonder who I'd be without every important person in my life.

I'm glad our paths crossed.

+ Flisha spoke @ 12:42 am

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Learn, Learn, Learn, Learn, Learn, Stress

My father's been playing with his new phone a lot it's quite funny.
He's learning stuff from it as well.

Then it struck me -
We learn all the time.
By discovering things for ourselves (playing with the phone)
By observing others...
Or by talking to people...

I made a few phone calls this morning to check if a certain book was in stock in the stores.
The people who answered the calls were generally really nice, but most of the time I didn't understand what they were talking about - they speak too fast.
I 'learned' from that - I'll try to speak slowly so that others might understand me.
Observation.

I read all afternoon.
About this confident, strong willed, ambitious woman who got whatever she wanted, mostly through her assertiveness (is that the right form of the word?)
Anyway, she got her money rolling in - and I'd like to learn from her.
Observation.

Oh, and I got the word 'assertive' stuck in my head - because I was talking to my father this evening and he said something about being assertive...
Which means that I 'learnt' the word through talking to my father...
Talking.

Another way of saying that we've learnt from people, is to say that people have taught us.
And if other people have taught us, they have been our teachers.
And if we learn so easily from practically everybody around us, they're all our teachers.
And if we have people around us to learn from, we would be the 'everybody around us' to the people around us (do you follow?).
And that means that the people around us learn from us as well...

Which implies that we ourselves are teachers...
Which means that we'd better watch what we teach others...
Which means that we've got to have what it takes...

BUT
To have what it takes requires us to learn...
From other people...

Damn my logic isn't working out so logically after all, is it...

+ Flisha spoke @ 9:21 pm

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Happy Easter

Did I forget to tell you how beautiful mass is?

I think I did, because I've forgotten myself.

Went for Easter Morning mass today.
It was comfortingly way more crowded than the regular masses.
There seemed to be this renewed energy in the congregation.
The music was fantastic, the people were happy...
The only person who didn't seem to smile was the priest celebrating mass(???!!!).

Hey is it just me?
Or does it ALWAYS rain in the afternoon on Good Friday?

+ Flisha spoke @ 2:09 pm

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In Flight Entertainment

There were so many movies I couldn't decide what I wanted to see.
So I ended up spending all my time watching tv.
The movies were thought provoking though...

The Human Stain-
Stars Anthony Hopkins and Nicole Kidman.
And Teresa, no, Anthony Hopkins' character is NOT freaky in this show.
He is a light skinned african american, who, all his life, was lost in his racial identity.
(Like Mr Michael Jackson?)

Mystic Rvier -
Is as good as Chris said it was.
It's interesting how the story ends the way it started......

You know how I'm always watching tv while having dinner in Melb, that's what I did on the plane as well.
Watched 2 episodes of Raymond while having dinner and Without a Trace while having supper.
It's all good.

Life revolving around tv is nostalgic.

+ Flisha spoke @ 10:53 am

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Losing, Losing, Lost

I feel like some air headed bimbo.
There's absolutely nothing of substance that I'm capable of coming up with these days.
Must be the effects of school.

Feel like changing blogskins...
But knowing me and my amazing talent of procrastination, you'll see a new blogskin some time next year...
Or maybe some time sooner...
Actually, I don't know.
You'll see a new blogskin when you see one.

Okay like I said to the babes at home, I'm evidently losing it.

+ Flisha spoke @ 11:16 am

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Annoyed.

Am done with my most stressful week of the semester.
Let's see, I was sick, pissed off and stressed up this week.

I'm no longer sick (medicine does wonders)
I'm no longer stressed up (finished the damn test)
But I sure still am pissed off.

Pissed off:
Lots of people around me piss me off.
My patience is running terribly with a few people and I'm about to snap at them.
(I do realize I should explain to them nicely but I don't want to)

Oh yes, and believe it or not, I piss myself off as well.
You know how I feel like killing people most of the time?
Well I feel like killing myself when I'm pissed off with myself.
But it's not the commit suicide feeling.
It's the "AARRRRRGGGGGHHHHHHH you bitch" kind of killing myself.

Sick:
Speaking of being pissed off lemme tell you the ultimate frustration of my week.
I was sick over the weekend.
Was losing my voice on Friday and I continued singing and talking over the weekend that I totally had NO VOICE when I woke up on Monday.

Monday:
All through school in the morning, I tried my very very best to hide from people. I even planned my route from on building to another, TRYING to find a way to get to cross the campus without bumping into anybody cos then I didn't have to talk to anybody - of course I didn't succeed. Uni is too small.

Later went to the doctor.
I was so frustrated while trying to talk to the rude receptionist I wanted to tell him off.
Then I remembered that I didn't have a voice to.
So I continued TRYING to get my messages across to him, but he still didn't get it. So I wanted to scream at him.
Then I remembered I didn't have a voice.
So I walked out. I really wanted to cry...
Only he suddenly became really nice when I turned my back and I got to see the doctor after all.

I had LARYNGITIS.
How cool.
I'm so proud of getting laryngitis.
Heeheehee.

Miracle medicine got my voice back within the two hours of me gobbling it up.
Never loved medicine so much before.
Hahaha now I look forward to eating medicine - feel like such a drug addict.
Kinda am actually. Oh well.
I know that's bad.....

Okok I better go...
Thanks for reading my whining.

Love ya all if you don't irritate me.

+ Flisha spoke @ 2:40 pm

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